…Like I said I can’t express anything on here or in real life without it being seen and making it worse.
Cody has been laid off the whole month which has been very stressful. We saved up enough to cover the big bills like the house and cilco. We are waiting for his unemployment and hopefully we will be good until he goes back to work in August.
Our car needs new breaks which we don’t have money for since Cody isn’t working so we will have to charge those to my credit card. We’ve been trying to get out of debt but it seems that almost impossible unless we downgrade to a smaller house and I go back to work. Neither of those will happen though. I’ll be getting a part time job in the fall to save up some money for Christmas and such. Then hopefully next year I can start going to school at night.
We decided to start looking for a Prius in August when Cody goes back to work since we’ve been spending a lot in gas from driving a lot.
My laptop is fried and it’s going to be $650 to fix it at a non apple company which is far cheaper than having apple fix it. Not having my nice laptop makes a lot of things harder, like putting pictures and music on my phone. I lost all my fonts and all my printables I had saved. My laptop will probably have to wait until we get our tax return in like march.
We decided to start using some of the rescued fruit for canning. Making jelly, jam, and butters. We will probably try to sell them to make a little extra cash which will probably go towards Layne’s savings.
We got our toilet and pipe unclogged again for the second time this year and haven’t had any problems with it. But now the drain my washer goes in doesn’t drain again, so I have to wash my laundry all janky and put the hose in a bucket and pay attention to the water and take it outside and dump the bucket. It’s like our house is cursed and there always has to be something wrong with it.
Thankfully our food budget is basically as low as can be. We don’t have to buy much just mostly milk and thanks for Layne like nuggets and yogurt. We have large garage freezer full of meat, fruit, and veggies. I applied for link and got denied because they go off of what Cody makes before taxes which I think is insane. We don’t even see that $300-600 every two weeks that gets taken out for his dues, his loan, and taxes. I was told he makes about $119 to much. There are so many things wrong with this world. I’m not to bothered by it though cause there are people who need link far more than we do but it still would have been helpful.
Layne is such a sweet boy but lately he’s been throwing fits and arguing a lot. I’m really not sure what to do with him since I’ve tried ignoring it, babying him, being stern with him, and being super loving and nothing seems to work. I’m hoping it’s just the terrible twos and he will out grow it.
I’m incredibly jealous of anyone who can so easily be in love and enjoy their partner. I can’t even express my feelings or who I am without feeling like I’ve just made things worse anymore.
I haven’t been in a good place in a long time and anymore I can’t remember what it’s like to just be me and be happy.
I can’t think of much else to say right now and no one reads these anyways.
It’s sad that I can’t express my feelings on my own tumblr(s) without being worried that someone will make my life worse.
What’s the point?